I lost him today. Can still feel his absence As his life slipped away No words to pray Knowing the day would come Still not sure what to say Or even what to feel Could this real? How do you mourn someone you weren't incredibly close to? And yet I grieved as if I'm supposed to Fast forward How fast the years go by It's not easier but still I try To honor him properly Though the ashes fly Still miss my absent father I can't lie No grave or tombstone to place the roses by Just the rose in my heart that will never die