In Memory of One Forgotten

I lost him today.
Can still feel his absence
As his life slipped away
No words to pray
Knowing the day would come
Still not sure what to say
Or even what to feel
Could this real?
How do you mourn someone you weren't incredibly close to?
And yet I grieved as if I'm supposed to

Fast forward
How fast the years go by
It's not easier but still I try
To honor him properly
Though the ashes fly
Still miss my absent father
I can't lie
No grave or tombstone to place the roses by
Just the rose in my heart that will never die

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