If I dared to put everything I am under personal scrutiny,
what would I find? If I stripped myself
of the labels and no longer defined myself or limited my identity to my
vocation or my scholarship then who would remain? Could I love that person? Could that person
be loved? Could he be recognized?
Somewhere along the way in my life, I allowed myself to be limited by
narrow definitions, like student, teacher, preacher, employee, and soldier. Knowing all the while that such titles don't
begin to define me. I even felt trapped
by my own name. It was my father’s
name. I spent most of my life undoing
and detaching my own identity from that of my father, because of the
interpretation of his own life heavily influenced that name in a negative way. I am not a name, a title or an employee. Should I be known by my income or my outcome?
By my social "friend"ships or by my relationships? If I dared to put everything I think I am on
trial and under oath, would I be guilty of the crimes of impersonating a human
being or will all the charges against me be dropped, because I was found to be
a child of God? Should I be cross examined or let the Cross examine me?
I don’t think we truly understand what divorce is and why God hates it. For example, if I gave you the Merriam Webster’s definition of divorce, the action or instance of legally dissolving a marriage , more than likely you'll find that definition insufficient. If you are divorced or your parents are divorced, you know that definition lacks depth and substance. It’s like a survivor of a devastating hurricane describing his experience as “I witnessed a tropical cyclone with winds of 156 mph that was accompanied by heavy rain thunder and lightning.” You know that surviving a category 5 hurricane is bit more involved than announcing a weather report. (Ask anyone who survived Hurricane Katrina.) And yet every survivor’s story is unique and personal. I especially believe we don’t get what divorce does to our children. I’m not saying that I completely understand it either. I’ve never been divorced, (not even close), but I do know how it affected me as a kid.
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